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dimples

HAHAHA. Who doesn't envy other's with dimples??

Well, everyone hopes to have one!!

Hmmm, people envy theose with dimples because it's something in-born which plastic surgury can make it out yeah?

But, dimples are actually birth defects. A beautiful one though.

So, link everything up. PEOPLE LIKE BIRTH DEFECTS? But no! Hell no! People despise birth defects actually. I can't name any at this moment, but ya. People hates them. But they love dimples. Irony, oh irony.

I have 2 dimples now. But when I was younger, I have 4! Where did the 2 went? People love my 4 dimples then.. Not now. Sigh.
I guess the other 2 went into dissappearing act when I go into puberty period, in other words, grown FATTER. ARGH. Can't I get back that superd figure I had once?

Ya man, I gotta cut down on my food intake? Hmmm, I still wanna do snap shots of myself in a studio. (Dressing up for the camara, make-up, fake lashes, flawless facial, pose pose &pose) Just the kind of stuff I like. HAHAHA. Hope I can achieve my disired figure and get that done mann.

*watching channel 8 - 9pm show now
Sudden death of both parents on the same day, wife-to-be slip into coma.

What does all this tell YOU?
Treasure life, treasure the people around you.

Okay. After watching this less than 5mins of shock, I am not angry with Zeph anymore.
His bike right, his choice to send anyone to school. I should appretiate that he's willing to send me to school. He choose to send bel to school over me, but he promised me that he send me on thurs! Oh well, maybe he's in love with bel, hope bel jus don't break his heart.

As for me, I just wanna enjoy life now. Urmm, life = up + down. I have my down sides, and also just recovering from it. However, I don't deny being glad that I came to this world. Give thanks to mami first. Next up, my friends. Next up, my once-boyfriends.

Mami loves me and I love mami. UNQUESTIONABLE.

My friends have been there for me when I need them. Hold me up, support me, be crazy with me, protect me, providing a shoulder for me to cry on when I'm depress or rest when I'm tired, crap with me, withstanding my whinnings and nonsense. Oh well, oh man, and many many things more.

Once-boyfriends. Urmm, being together with you guys brighten up my life, your choosing to leave me had also put me way down. But I will never hate or dislike you guys, your once made me feel that life was just about us. I can't be such a selfish person to condemn you for not choosing me. Besides, I'm not someone who is good at making someone stay. If you wanna walk away, all I want from you is turn around and bid farewell to me before leaving.

Ah well, I made myself sounds so high up and humble.
Don't know~

I always wonder..

If dreams are true?
Why some of my dreams come true?
Why for some dreams, only partial became true?
Why can't I remember some dreams but some stay on with me even till now?

Recently, I dreamt of a guy. A guy I once like, or I still like? I don't know.
Maybe he always have that special place in my heart, which may not be love. But what is it, I don't know.

How can I know which dreams will come true and which will not?
Which are the dreams that have underlying meaning in it?

This guy I dreamt of, I only remember part of the dream but I never really say out the contents of my dream. Having him as a friend is good enough for me. Always never fail to irrittate me, but as the same time never fail to make me laugh.

How to differentiate between dreams and makeup dream?

Sometimes, when you have a sweet dream you may start making up the ending so that the sweetness continues.

There's a saying in chinese, 'the things you think at during the day, will return to you as dreams at night'. (ri you suo si, ye you suo meng) When does this applies?

I will be glad if someone can enlighten me on all my queries.

Hilary Duff
Someone's Watching Over Me

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is just you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark
I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I won't be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
Took this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark
I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark
I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark
I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me
Someone's watching over me

Bea, thanks for the song babe. I won't break down again. At least not for him.

I will smile for my friends.

I thought if we can't be couple, staying as friends would be fine. But what you've done today makes me feel so cheated and wondered why I like a guy like you in the first place. Or should I say I liked a different guy with a same looks and name as you.

Many of my friends feel that you have been playing with me all along and I've been trying to block all this thoughts as you have been so sweet since the day you started messaging me. But now I have something bad to say about you. You are not gentleman at all! Or that's what you want me to put you as so that I will really leave you for good.

I DON'T KNOW
DON'T KNOW
DON'T KNOW
DON'T KNOW
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Let time show us everything.

I have taken the first step to forget our past. Forgetting our past as in to be able to put down and move on, I still wanna keep the memories we had together as you are the only guy who suits me most if you CAN commit. But you can't.

I deleted all the messages he send me, MOST of the pictures we took together and had kept all the neoprints in an album which I rarely touch. I just wanna have you in my sweet memories but not a cause to my sorrow I am in now.

I know I did things that made you feel guilty towards me. Pardon me for doing that as I wanna make myself feel better. I'm selfish, but who isn't? I believe yyou are too, getting in and out a relationship within 2 weeks. I remember you telling me that you did not want to get into a relationship in your 3-yrs of poly life. And I asked you why are you together with me then? You didn't really answer the question.

From what I see, you fall for me that's why you profess to me and we being together. However, because of you afraid to commit into this relationship you hope we just remain as good friends. This is you being selfish. But now then you realise I'm so attached to you, it's not your fault too. I never very press you to do thing if you refuse too. You choose soccer over me but I never complain, I know you had give in to me in some ways too. I'm thankful about that.

If you happen to read this post, I wanna let you know you have been great for that 2 weeks quite constantly providing me with attention and had always been so hugging and snuggly for me. When we meet, you can always give me those moist kisses and warm hugs. All and all, you still broke my heart.

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Hope this will never happen to the other girls you will meet in your life.

Bring me up &never put me down.

We split ways on 9 may.

Just a short period of 2weeks but my feelings for him are stronger than what I thought. I'm too attached to him and over-dependent on him which is a grave mistake I made.

The day he told me he likes me, I was so so happy as I finally find someone whom I have feelings for and he has the same feeling towards me. Without hesitation I just allow myself to sink into this sea. Now that I realise I have sink too deep in, it's too late. It's so hurting to let him go, without him by my side, for me to hug and kiss.

He really should not have started all this, it's always the girls on the losing end. My friend told me about having a no status relationship with him but NO, I don't think I can do it. I just wanna be his good friend that's all. No more hard feelings and such stuff.

I realise I'm the kind of girl who can't be ignored, I need constant attention from my guy. I need constant assurance that he's heart is always with me. I need a guy which can announce our relationship to all. I need a guy who can go into long-term relationships, not afraid to be tied down and commit totally into our relationship.

I was already prepared to commit, giving him more time than I give to my friends but he dissapoint me in the end. Now that we borke up and he giving me reasons like he's afraid to commit and stuff like it was a crush rather than love, I being to wonder if he's cheating my feelings. I making assumptions and hope that is never true.

All I can do now is cry out to the maximum tonight and be back to my usual self from tomorrow onwards. I don't wanna suffer like this, I look so ugly with a swollen eye and a red nose. I will take this as a lesson and really, this is a hard hit.

I will never wanna put in so much feelings for anyone till everything is stable.

I maybe selfish, but I don't want to get hurt anymore.

I'm gald I have freinds that really stand by me no matter what. They are the one I need most now. Thanks to joyce, baby, FM, rudy, pris, YQ and many others. I think my love should go to you guys rather than him. Your are my babies.

When you profess to me, I didn't consider so much. In fact, I was over the moon.

The message you sent to me, really melts my heart.

The first time we went out, the time we spent together is heaven.

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You can never have access to this blog. It's too hidden.

Hope that all the above will stays on.

Love ya, baby.

I don't know.

Am I too sensitive or what?

It's true that other's say that a guy is different before and after being together. Only after you experience it then you will realise.

But I think I'm too attached to him, that's why no matter what he does, I will forgive him easily.

I'm a silly girl.

I will put up our pictures when I get the cable to upload them.

I'm so bored now.

I need entertainment or someone/something to focus on.

Finally, I managed to took pictures of my baby. He look so good in them la, but he don't think so.

It's in the privacy of my phone and no one can have access to it.

I hope I can drive a car soon.

I hope to have a japanese food feast.

His on my mind now.

His phone batt is flat.

Tmr what shall I wear? I'm going out with him for both of my meals.

I hope I can change to a new lappy.

Neoprints on sunday!

I wanna slim down to 48 before 18th birthday.

Zeph, please take me on your bike.

Why, baby and me live so far away?

Shall I wait for him to come online tonight?

Should I get my hair highlight red?

I wanna do my eye lashes on one of my wkends off day.

I'm sad I didn't manage to get us the world cup shirts.

Some people just don't understand other's feelings.

My eyes are getting to dry up now.

Above are ramdom thought on my mind at this very time.

I'm sipping hot CREAM OF CHICKEN campbell soup now.

My lurve for
- campbell soups
- ice cold plain water
- pipping hot japanese green tea
- selected alcohol beverages

- steam eggs
- tempura
- salmon sashimi
- potatoes
- grilled/fried BONELESS fish
- lamb chop
- soba noodles
- golden mushrooms cooked in anyway
- brocolli cooked in anyway
- hawaiian pizza
- bacon aglio olio
- fries esp. MACS
- butter sweet cup corn
- scallops cooked in anyway
- chocs

- Sleeping
- Slacking
- Stoning
- Singing
- Smooching( to baby)
- Sitting ( on baby's lap)
- Hugging (baby)

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